Oh the things that I do (and don't do) when drinking.

Weird time last night. Had a lot of fun, drank with Christina and other Distortion regulars but felt something was holding me back. I'm in a bit of an apathy rut, I think. There's been too much lounging and relaxing and not enough acting and doing the things that I need to. I didn't even leave the house today. Thought about calling some folk up to get a coffee but I was just too tired.

I keep learning new things about me lately. Some good, some bad. Maybe I'm thinking of it in taoist terms a little too much but it feels like there's a split between 'am' and 'want to be' that's causing a lot of dissonance.

Tomorrow's another day. Get a job. Read a book. Flirt with a pretty girl. Figure it out.